Well, I told myself the first post would be about something else…

But I guess I should have realised that I was being unrealistic!  So, Eloise, my love, my ex, etc!  What can I say?  I think of her every day, maybe for a minute, maybe for an hour.  So many nights she’s the last thing I think of, and so many mornings I wake up dreaming of her.

It is, ifaith, a quandary, which I don’t have time to go into here, and without a poll, there’s nothing to be gained.  It’s a long story which I’ve gone into often enough.  But I wanted to write something, and this is always relevant to me lately.

Other options for a first post were- will anyone ever read this?  How personal can I make this? (Especially given the first point).  I thought I wouldn’t post for the sake of it, but hey, writing is good for expression, and at least I can feel like I’m getting my thoughts out, without making my mates hear the same things over and over.  Truth is, I just have to wait and see.  If she never calls me, I’ll know that she never really loved me, and even if she did, she definitely doesn’t now!

Current question on my mind is: now that I have her number again (I deleted it, but heh, my phone bill gives it away with the hours/regularity) do I call her after enough time has gone by?  In truth it’s only been a week since she got back, but I haven’t heard from her (even incl. email) for nearly 3.  For voice, god only knows how long.  It still surprises me, but meh, nothing to be known about it.  Time will tell.

Meh, enough of this topic!  Let’s hope something exciting happens to give me reason to post!
Still, now I’m off the bat, and the e-horizon beckons

Gareth